I force faith
I'm a garbled countdown
Characters numbers I don't understand
I fake hope
That I'm reading them wrong
Forgot to carry a one or subtract
My pretenses protect my investments

I'm ashamed
And it's raining outside
I'm so excited it's raining outside
I'm used smooth
Worn out ways I can't say
Worn out and rubbed out illegibly faded
With angry red rusty magnetic ink

I sweat mud
Organic chemicals
Covalent bondage agents secreted
I live cold
Bodyheat afterthought
Consequence of vestigial heartbeats
My incisive blameless eyes divisive

I'm a void
That fills with others' heat
Wrapped huddled and shivering clinging tight
I'm faulty
My hands unreadable
Too many hands point to tell the moment
My aching busted shell frustrated

I gesture
Wherever seems useful
And still reading wrong I still read them wrong
I perform
My duties rote fashion
Somewhere else always somewhere else always
My face fifty thousand fluid falsehoods

I'm ticking
Not bomb boom self destruct
Implosion ash flash magnesium flare
I'm a fraud
Of telling making time
I can see the future because it ends
But I can't see the where of the when ends